Change is hard… Change can be difficult to accept…Change can be better…
Not too long ago I wrote a blog post about things I wish I had known before I started my business. I’d like to think that if I had known them I still would have pushed forward into the world of business ownership. I continue to learn however, that as the business grows, the challenges seem to get bigger too. That makes me wonder if I really would have gone down this path if I would have know everything that I do now. 2016 has been by far the hardest year for me when it comes to my business. It honestly continues to get harder, but I’m finding that with the challenges also comes a greater will to keep fighting.
After two plus years of being more like my business partner than assistant, Jen decided it was time to leave the company. It all seemed to happen very quickly and much of what has happened over the past month feels like a blur. Despite the feeling of sudden change, I really did know in my heart it was coming. Even though I wasn’t shocked that she was leaving, I still wasn’t prepared for the roller coaster of emotions that I went through. Just returning from Las Vegas with new knowledge and plans, it felt sudden and negative thoughts tried seeping their way into my mind and heart. That’s not fair or good for anyone.
If I’m being 100% honest, I have gone from one extreme to the other as Jen has made her exit. I considered closing the business completely because taking steps backward is not an option after all that I have worked for. I considered scaling back and going back to working on my own, I considered finding a full on replacement and several versions in between. Ultimately I have decided to keep going, regardless of how great an employee is, no one is irreplaceable. That’s just a fact. I have also come to realize that one employee doesn’t make or break everything that I have worked so hard for since 2005. There is no disputing the fact that I have gotten myself to where I am. While part of that is having good people around me, it started with me.
As I settle into the new normal around here I am starting to get kind of excited about the idea of a new beginning. I haven’t decided what I want the new era of Raspberry Creative to look like just yet, but I think that is part of the fun. For the first time I am able to imagine something different and I am starting to find that exciting. Losing such a big part of my company wont be easy, but I am ready to take the next step. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and planning and though it may in some ways look and feel different around here, this company started because of me and I’m still here breathing life into it every day.
I wish Jen happiness and contentment in the new chapter she is starting in her life and I’m ready to turn the page on a fresh chapter here at Raspberry Creative as well.